Who Am I

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A Tough Prayer

believing-god-beth-mooreI’m doing a bible study by Beth Moore called Believing God: Experiencing a Fresh Explosion of Faith. In short, Beth talks about how many of us believe in God but don’t always believe Him. Guilty. I definitely need a fresh explosion of faith! Today’s study had us read Proverbs 2:1-5 and journal about the concepts taught in the verses. What I wrote down is a little embarrassing for me. It made me realize what I sometimes desire over God! So here I am, laying my heart out to you. I hope it helps someone realize they are not alone if they crave other things over God. I firmly believe He can help me flip those desires. Here is my faith journal from today.

“To find the knowledge of God, I must treat it like I would a mouthwatering dessert, an SVU marathon, time with Charlotte, a bubble bath, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest. I should be ‘pinning’ the word of God on my heart. Lord, please help me to desire You and Your word like I do the things above. Please help me to find Your word relaxing, delicious, satisfying, interesting, life changing, magnificent. Please help me to crave it when life is good and when life is tough. Please draw me to it in the blank spaces of the day. Oh God, renew in me a great love for you. A real, true love. Speak to my heart, give me insight into your word, and fill my mind and soul with wisdom. Fill me with faith that is bursting at the seams!!”

I have already learned so much in this faith journey. And I figure, God already knows what’s in my mind and heart, so why not share it with him??

 

Muah,

Brittany

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A Year of Firsts

Typically, we like to think of a baby’s “firsts” being all about them. But, come on, we all know it’s all about US. From the picture you will see below, it’s clear that Charlotte had no idea what was going on during Christmas, nor will she remember any of these firsts. My husband so affectionately told me during the planning of her first birthday party (where I could have easily spent more than we did on our wedding) that this was really for us, our friends, and family. At the time, I was horrified by that thought. No, no, no! This was all about C! She will absolutely LOVE her party dress, her cake, her venue, her presents, her…. Looking back on it, I now realize the truth in his statement- the truth about all of her firsts. But you know what? I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Yes, C will never remember these things, but I will! After 41 weeks of anxiously awaiting her arrival, sleepless nights, being a human pacifier, tending to tumbles, pureeing an assortment of foods… I think we deserve our year of firsts. If anything, we have the prize of, “We made it to Christmas!” “Wow! It’s Easter, and she’s still alive.” (On a side note, was anybody else insanely scared when they left the hospital? Thoughts of “How will she survive?” and “Can we do this alone??” lingered heavily!)

I point these things out to now happily parade a host of pictures below of “my” firsts. After over a year with my sweet, smart, and saucy girl, I cannot believe we’ve come this far. I thank God daily for the right to be her mommy. It’s been some adventure!

First night at home

First night at home

First Bath

First Bath

First Christmas

First Christmas

First Valentine's Day

First Valentine’s Day

First Easter

First Easter

First Time at the Beach

First Time at the Beach

First Bite of Cereal

First Bite of Cereal

First Halloween

First Halloween

First Camping Trip

First Camping Trip

First Birthday

First Birthday

First Thanksgiving

First Thanksgiving

I tried to put more than one picture on a line, but, alas, I am not that gifted with blogging yet. And, of course, I could have put a dozen more photos! But I hope you enjoyed getting to know C a little better. I know I have!

Who am I? I’m Charlotte’s mommy!

Muah,

Brittany

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Prayer Calendar

One thing I have always struggled with in my faith walk is prayer. I had trouble consistently praying in general. Eventually, I would just give up altogether because I felt like there was so much to pray for. How could I get to it all? A couple of weeks ago, I came across a post by Michelle Myers that explained her prayer calendar. I felt so inspired,  I took her idea and ran with it. Mind you, she does a daily theme and a monthly one. I have only successfully started the daily theme, but I figure… baby steps. So I wanted to share my weekly prayer calendar with you.

Monday- My Husband

I found a blog that gives 10 prayer ideas for your husband and the verses that go with them. You can find that here. Some of them include prayers for him to be the spiritual leader of the home, that the Word of God would dwell in him, etc. I find this especially helpful for when I am at a loss for what to pray. But, of course, I address specific needs as well.

Tuesday- Charlotte

I also discovered a list of prayers for children, located here. This is not an all inclusive list, but it is a good starting point. I especially pray that I would be the mom and Randy would be the dad the Lord would have us to be. I want to be such a good example for Charlotte.

Wednesday- Family

On this day, I pray for both our immediate and extended families. I started a prayer journal about a month ago where I list the needs of our family members.

Thursday- My Church and Church Members

From specific leaders of Church of the Jordan to individual family needs, that is what this day is for. This is an area that I had definitely been lacking in the past, so I am thankful for a day dedicated to the church. I also pray for direction for our church as a whole.

Friday- Friends

This day is reserved for the individual needs of my friends and their families.

Saturday- The Lost

On Saturdays, I dedicate my prayer time for those who haven’t accepted Christ. This could be family, friends, or just simply people around the world.

Sunday- The Church

What I mean when I say “The Church” is the body of Christ as a whole around the world. Because most churches are having services this day, I purpose to have this time in the morning if possible for things like the pastors, music services, tech teams, and volunteers.

Of course, there are things that come up daily that don’t follow under the day’s category, and I will pray about them. This is just what I needed to help structure my prayer time. I hope to start the monthly focus soon, but I want to become consistent with this first. I list my prayers in a double entry journal. All you have to do is draw a line down the center, and on one side you write the prayer. On the other side, you come back to it and write how God answered. I get so excited when I can go back to a prayer and write an answer God provided!

If anybody out there has read this post, I hope it has helped in some way. If you have anymore prayer advice, feel free to share!

Muah,

Brittany

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Trust Without Borders

As I mentioned on Facebook recently, my current obsession is “Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)” by Hillsong. At first, I couldn’t really identify why I was so drawn to this song. To begin with, this song is around 8 minutes long. And I will just listen to it over. And over. And over again. Poor Charlotte. But as I really started listening to the lyrics, it was the bridge that really resonated with me.

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever you would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior”

You see, recently I have been going through some doubting of my beliefs. Of course, in my heart I believe in God and know he sent Jesus to die for my sins. But it has been in some issues that are subject to ambiguity (that perhaps I will write about later) that I started questioning what I have always believed. An uplifting talk with my sister led me to really dig in further with God instead of pulling away, and I have started to feel that doubt slowly start to slip away. Yes, I still have questions that are unanswered. Yes, I still wonder why God does the things he does. Yes, I still have much to learn. This is where this song comes in.

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders… and my faith will be made stronger.” This is what has been speaking to me! That my trust in the Lord would be boundless and my faith strengthened. I feel like I could just curl up and worship the Lord all day long with this song. 🙂

I look forward to what God has in store for me through this time. If, perhaps, you have gone through the same thing in your faith journey, please leave some words of encouragement below.

Muah,

Brittany

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I Did It. Again.

I couldn’t resist the Britney reference… So, yes, I have had a blog before. Long story short, I got pregnant and the blog fizzled out. Lately, I’ve been feeling the urge to blog again. To my audience of two (maybe three), get excited.

Who am I. Yes, an amazing song by Casting Crowns. But it also describes where I am in life right now. My goal this year is to really nail down what God’s purpose is for me. I hope writing about it helps out the process!

I also want to use this forum to brag about my cute kid. Seeing her grow and change into the amazing little person she is has been one of the best privileges I have had in this life. Even if I figure out that my main purpose is to help her become the best woman she can be, I’m cool with that.

Charlotte

I mean, the cutest, right?

Muah,

Brittany

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